We have all read or watched some pretty strange fiction. Like “Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde”, “The Fly” and so many others. I knew transition was going to have some serious physical changes. But I wasn’t expecting this.
The compassion I have buried for decades is becoming a distinctive part of who I am. I wasn’t expecting that but given I have always cried easily it didn’t surprise me.
My taste in clothing has done a 180. In the past, I have always preferring earth tones and dark colors. Now that I can express who I am my new wardrobe is full of pastels and bright colors. Furthermore coordinating my cloths has become a big thing to me. I’m not sure where this came from but I am enjoying it and well it doesn’t seem that different.
But it seems estrogens effects are FAR beyond anything I had ever imaged. Not only can it change your presenting gender, not only can it bring out so many dormant parts of your personality, but it can also transform you at even a deeper level.
Today I did an unbelievable thing. I opened the door and picked up a cat. This is a stray cat that has been hanging around our house that the kids like. I made sure and did this when no one was looking because I wasn’t sure where my estrogen was taking me.
I picked him up, poked his nose and petted him a bit. This was really bazaar. But I actually did that. For those of you that don’t understand I grew up with books like “101 things to do with a dead cat”, “The official I hate cats book”, and others. This was very deep at my core, but it is changing.
I don’t know that I will ever be a cat lover, but even a cat tolerator is a HUGE change. So I am learning estrogen seems to have no limits as to what it can do. Maybe one of these days I will be telling you about my new wings and how much fun flying is.