Welcome to my blog. I am Jasmine-Arabella. I love life, I love writing and I love sharing my life via my writing. More then anything else I hope to encurage you to be more authentic, to live a fuller life. I have been blessed beyond belief to be transgender. Yes blessed. Yes, it has been very hard and the world isn’t always that friendly to those of us. I could focus on that but I chose to focus on the blessing.
It seems to me most people, as I once did, mostly take life for granted. Most days go by, with little notice. When was the last time you stopped to enjoy the couds in wonderment and joy as a child does? When was the last time you smelled a flower and truely savored the fragrance? I do these things daily and so much more, because after decades of living a lie, I am now free to me me.
I think few savor life as trans people do. For me, now, life is amazing. I hope to spend the rest of my life learning and growing and becoming a better person. And this is the place I will share it all with you.
The following is my about page from when I first came out in November of 2019.
Here you will find one more trans person expressing themselves. Here you will find a slightly different store then what you may read elsewhere. Here you will find serious and fun, all parts of the reality we call life.
In case you haven’t read it yet, a bit about me
I have always known I was different. Even as a young child I didn’t fit in. But I always hid it, even from myself. As long as I managed to keep it hidden I was fine. As some of my kids came out as LGBT, things started changing; it wasn’t so easy to hide anymore. When we moved to Utah in 2018, I started learning more about LGBT and how it might relate to me. At the time I didn’t know where that was going to lead, but my wife and I worked through it together. After months of research and working with medical professionals, I finally figured out I am trans.
The next few months were amazing. There was so much self-discovery and learning about all kinds of things. It became very clear that there was a lot to learn and do to become the woman I am inside. Because of all of this, I figured I would not be coming out in public for two or three years. But as the self-discovery continued the stress of using my birth name and gender grew. I started hoping maybe I could come out in a year. A year turned into next summer, next summer turned into next spring and next spring turned into next winter.
Finally one day in early November 2019 my wife, seeing all of the stress this was causing me asked me why I was waiting. I didn’t really have an answer other than I was scared. She asked what my therapist & doctors thought. They were all asking the same question, “Why was I waiting?” So it was decided that I would come out locally over the Thanksgiving weekend. I create a “Welcome to my coming out party” page and shared it with everyone I wanted to let know. Then next month on Facebook I posted “Some Big Changes” over New Years.
It was all rather scary and unbelievably wonderful. You never know how people are going to react. I had one old acquaintance reply some rather preaching stuff on one of my FB posts, but even he was respectful. If there were others who disapproved they didn’t voice it. The overall reception I got was wonderful. So many loving comments and compliments.
I am far from done. There are many challenges ahead and I still have a lot of growing to do. But to say the future looks bright is a huge understatement. Being me, the real me is so wonderful, so amazing. There are times I wish I could bottle up all of the joy and amazement I am experiencing and share it with the world.
Update: 2023 03 25
There are times I wish I could bottle up all of the joy and amazement I am experiencing and share it with the world.
It has been over three years since I wrote this page and that sentense. If anything it is more true now then it was then. Oh don’t get me wrong. I certainly have my hard times. Some things are intensly painful. But overall, most days, life is amazing.