Here you will find one more trans person expressing themselves. Here you will find a slightly different store then what you may read elsewhere. Here you will find serious and fun, all parts of the reality we call life.
In case you haven’t read it yet, a bit about me
I have always known I was different. Even as a young child I didn’t fit in. But I always hid it, even from myself. As long as I managed to keep it hidden I was fine. As some of my kids came out as LGBT, things started changing; it wasn’t so easy to hide anymore. When we moved to Utah in 2018, I started learning more about LGBT and how it might relate to me. At the time I didn’t know where that was going to lead, but my wife and I worked through it together. After months of research and working with medical professionals, I finally figured out I am trans.
The next few months were amazing. There was so much self-discovery and learning about all kinds of things. It became very clear that there was a lot to learn and do to become the woman I am inside. Because of all of this, I figured I would not be coming out in public for two or three years. But as the self-discovery continued the stress of using my birth name and gender grew. I started hoping maybe I could come out in a year. A year turned into next summer, next summer turned into next spring and next spring turned into next winter.
Finally one day in early November 2019 my wife, seeing all of the stress this was causing me asked me why I was waiting. I didn’t really have an answer other than I was scared. She asked what my therapist & doctors thought. They were all asking the same question, “Why was I waiting?” So it was decided that I would come out locally over the Thanksgiving weekend. I create a “Welcome to my coming out party” page and shared it with everyone I wanted to let know. Then next month on Facebook I posted “Some Big Changes” over New Years.
It was all rather scary and unbelievably wonderful. You never know how people are going to react. I had one old acquaintance reply some rather preaching stuff on one of my FB posts, but even he was respectful. If there were others who disapproved they didn’t voice it. The overall reception I got was wonderful. So many loving comments and compliments.
I am far from done. There are many challenges ahead and I still have a lot of growing to do. But to say the future looks bright is a huge understatement. Being me, the real me is so wonderful, so amazing. There are times I wish I could bottle up all of the joy and amazement I am experiencing and share it with the world.