Welcome to my blog

Thank you for taking a peek at what I have to say.

Below is my blog. Most everything here has something to with my being a transgender woman, or trans in general. This is where I get to continue my story. You will find a mixture of light fun topics along with some more serious themes.


  • My answer to Pulse
    I have only been dancing for a few months. My first real experience on the dance floor was November 5, 2021. That night I was so nervous, I had no idea what I was doing. I felt so out of place. I had been to a dance club a couple… Continue reading My answer to Pulse
  • Beautiful People
    For me, if the Pride Weekend had a motto it would be Beautiful People. Above all else, that is what made it so very special, like a slice of heaven on earth.   I had considered trying to share everything I did at Pride, but that was a lot, and… Continue reading Beautiful People
  • My Life Motto
    Do you have a life motto? I doubt it; I didn’t used to. I think most of us just make our way through life without such guiding perspectives. The fact is I didn’t choose a life motto, it found me. I have been living by this motto for a while… Continue reading My Life Motto
  • I want to die on the dance floor
    No, I am not suicidal. I hope to live many more decades. Yes, at my age I think in terms of decades. To be specific my goal is to live to 120 years old. I have special reasons for that number, you can ask me if you want to know.… Continue reading I want to die on the dance floor
  • A Place to Dance
    As most of you know my favorite place to dance, The Sun Trapp, is temporarily closed due to a legal issue. For many people that would just mean a lack of nightlife options. But dancing isn’t just something I do for fun, dancing in the right environment is so beyond… Continue reading A Place to Dance
  • Living without the Sun
    As many of you know for the past couple months I have been regularly dancing at The Sun Trapp. In so many ways The Sun Trapp has become a second home to me. Unfortunately for the past few weeks the Trapp has been closed. They are going through some legal… Continue reading Living without the Sun
  • Finding My Limit
    My whole life I thought I was an extrovert. I did my best to avoid big social events and just stay at home. But for a variety of reasons I started feeling that might be wrong. After dipping my social toes in the water for a bit I finally took… Continue reading Finding My Limit
  • Redeeming a Name
    I think for most people they don’t think about names much. But when you are trans there are two very important names; the one you were given at birth and your real name. For me my real name, Jasmine-Arabella, is extremely special and important to me. I spent a long… Continue reading Redeeming a Name
  • My First Christmas
    No not my very first Christma, but my first christmas in nearly 20 years. I grew up in a secular home, but my parents always celebrated Christmas. Which is a bit of an understatement. Christmas was my mom’s favorite holiday and she went all out on presents and decorating and… Continue reading My First Christmas
  • Finding Home
    I have lived a lot of place but none of them have ever been home. I grew up in the bay area (San Francisco bay area). For the most part that was an experience I survived. Not to say it was all bad but I had no friends and never… Continue reading Finding Home
  • The Bar
    Sometimes you don’t know who you are until it happens. I was raised in a very conservative family. Although my dad went out to bars at times it was clear my mom didn’t consider them a great place to be. Since most of my parental influence came from my mom… Continue reading The Bar
  • Six Amazing Days
    Realizing you are trans later in life is a mixed bag.  On one hand, I already have an established career and a loving supportive family.  On the other hand, there is this feeling of needing to make up for lost time.  I always knew I didn’t fit, that my life… Continue reading Six Amazing Days
  • Magic Wand
    Have you ever wished you had a magic wand to fix something? I sure have, a lot. Being transgender sometimes feels impossible. So many many things don’t fit, and fixing them always seems to take forever. I have cried so hard about this so many times. Such an immense feeling… Continue reading Magic Wand
  • Day One
    Well this is actually day one and a half. I arrived at the hospital at 5:11 AM Monday morning. It is now 1pm Tuesday morning. A lot has happened in those 34 hours. When my wife and I got to the hospital we were so early, my appointment was for… Continue reading Day One
  • T minus 48 hours
    Live is getting very intense. And there is so much going through my head right now. And believe it or not, not all of it is about me and my surgery. Well, it is all kind of connected. My surgery makes me think about the journey I have been on,… Continue reading T minus 48 hours
  • 4 Days 11 Hours 6 Minutes
    In some ways the days have been dragging by and in other ways they seem so full and busy. But I am down to just 4 days and a few hours to a new me. No, the me that has always been coming out more. I am so excited and… Continue reading 4 Days 11 Hours 6 Minutes
  • 8 Days 8 Hours 28 Minutes
    Well, actually less than that now that you are reading this. Do you think I am a bit excited? I feel like every cell in my body is crying out for this. I have waited my whole life for this. No it is not the end there are other steps… Continue reading 8 Days 8 Hours 28 Minutes
  • Goodby EPIC
    EPIC is the name of the LGBT affinity group where I work. Or that is it used to be; EPIC is gone. Killed off by the direction of management with a few clicks on someone’s keyboard. My company still has an LGBT affinity group, but it isn’t EPIC by any… Continue reading Goodby EPIC
  • The Next Step
    I have debated about sharing this topic.  It is quite personal, and for me, very intense.  To share or not to share has been my question for a while now.  But the deciding factor was my privilege.  While I am not super wealthy or many other things that the word… Continue reading The Next Step
  • An Amazing Journey
    Some say transitioning is a “process”, I think it is far closer to a journey.  Maybe you’re on some distant planet, or a tropical island, or any other secluded beautiful untouched place.  Like any such journey, there are scary moments, crossing some treacherous ravine, or wondering if your supplies will… Continue reading An Amazing Journey